Not {safe}…but Worth It

Here is my latest 5-minute Friday offering on the topic of “Risk”. If you want to join in the fray check out Gypsy Mama and jump in the circle!

jesus-answeredI know I shouldn’t have looked twice but I have no choice. I can no longer pretend not to see what God wants me to see. I can no longer pretend not to hear or understand.

Because while many, many things are not necessarily seen with the naked eye…

they are always seen with the naked heart.

So I looked… I chose to see and I what I saw didn’t shock or surprise me as much as I thought it would. I looked and saw more that I recognized than I thought I would. In so many ways I saw myself staring back at me…that self of so many insecure years ago. The little girl I was and not yet the woman I wanted to be and I felt …not pity but compassion. It was ok to feel and understand.

And each time it gets a little easier and really, I can’t help it anymore.

It’s God who does these things. He takes us forward and back through our brokenness into wholeness and back to revisit our brokenness to bring about new wholeness in these ways….like a weaver at a loom weaving together a marvelous and fine tapestry.

No scarred or tattered piece is cast aside. No strand of pain is too frayed to be used. No off-color fragment of memory is too short….every bit is reclaimed by Him for Him and in the word’s of Jason Gray–in the hands of our Redeemer–NOTHING is wasted.

I have a broken heart for broken women and somehow find myself, like Jesus, being led by Him to “go through” someplace seemingly out of the way of my ordinary day to meet them. And I will never forget the moment I submitted to His call and asked simply for the ability to see and the wisdom to KNOW and lead…to with Him, bind up the broken-hearted…and my life has never been the same since.

It’s not easy being a mentor. It’s not simple, short-term or even slightly convenient to be a discipler…but I’d have it no other way.  It’s a risk I’m willing to take to be so transparent with my fears, foibles and scars so that in this risky transparency, the light of Christ may shine forth in the darkest corners of this world. I have nothing to lose and everything to gain.

Because, as C.S Lewis taught us, while our passionate and holy Lover and Great God is not “safe”… He is always GOOD.

And to serve Him with holy abandon is always a risk worth taking.

Fear not.

Look twice.

6 thoughts on “Not {safe}…but Worth It

  1. I’m about 20 years ahead of you, looking back at all those lessons learned along the way and am still learning. I sometimes think that if I were secure as I wished I was all those years that God would not have reached into my heart of hearts. but, I wasn’t, still not sometimes, and praise God, He did get into my heart and no it is NOT safe but it is indeed good!

    1. But Nancy…as a woman traveling 20 years behind you, I BEG you to have courage and to live into what God has called out to you (or has whispered) because I NEED YOU. I need strong and tender women of God to show me how to run this race with endurance marked out for each of us. Thanks so much!

    1. Thanks Christina, it’s become one of my favorite quotes too. I’m not foolish enough to imagine I want to skip through a field of landmines but if God leads, I couldn’t be any place safer than in the center of His will.

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